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Anyway, on to my life. I'm at my dads for a week. Should be fun, but i gotta start getting to bed before 4. I mean, i have school again on the 5th, and i dont want to be in a bad pattern. Christams was exceptionally good to me this year. i got a new digital camera, thusly i shall hopfully be getting pictures up somewhere soon. If only i can find a good host for them. I hope i can pull my spanish grade up above a d by the end of the semester. Then i might be able to go to the Grind Your Face Off concert on the 17th. That would kick some serious ass.
I HEART THE COCKNEY MONOTONES!!!!
That is all i gots ta say to yall this early mornin'
Peace out.
I won my fantasy football game, which means i win $50. Now im rich again.
I need to go wrap presents now, for otherwise it wont get done. I leave now.
P.S. Aimee, i will maybe IM you at my dads this next week, for i do not have aim here, just MSN. If you ever get a MSN account tell me, then we shall talk a lot.
Chemistry is always fun when we make smores. I like the idea of cooking marshmallows over a bunsen burner. Always good. 4 more hours and im done for the year. Then a hole bunch of work followed by going to my dads for a week and a half. Thatll be fun. Being away from my mom for a week is always a joyus prospect.
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I wanna go home and be done with this hellhole. Stupid sophommores piss me off. Trying to type in my blog whilst i help a fellow student try to get his Wi-Fi to connect. Fuck underclassmen.
I lie wauy too much, to way too many people, about way too many things. Im a chronic liar, and i like it. I realy should stop, but i dont wanna.
Im going to my dads in minny next week. That would be more fun if all the U of M peole were still there, cause then i could hang out with eric, or my cousin steven.
Fuck the police.
I miss the kids at the Marie Sandvik Center. They were the coolest people ever. I wish i could go back.
Tonight was fun though. After work Ryan and I sat in his car and drank a beer or two. Well, actually, he had two, i didnt even finish one. I wasnt in the mood. Oh well. He had six he needed to get rid of before he went home, so after the three we had, i grabbed the other three anfd took them with me. I might drink them later, but im not a big beer drinker. If it were vodka, it would have been gone an hour ago.
I wish i wasnt in school anymore. It really sucks right now. I only keep going because i know i need it for my culinary arts school, and because my friends are there. Other than that, it seems kinda pointless. I feel strange as of late. Something ive never dealt with before. I dont exactly know what is is im feeling, but it kinda sucks, yet it doesnt really. I dont know what causes it, or why, and again, im apathetic towards it.
I hate the fact that im so stoic about shit. i wish i could just let my feeling go sometimes. But i dont. No matter how much it hurts, i keep it all inside. I remember a few years ago when my grandma died. I was devistated. But what did i do at the funeral? Nothing. i didnt cry, i didnt mourn, i just sat there. Again, it felt so surreal that i almost denied it. But i still accepted the fact that it had happened. I dont know what this all means, nor do i care. I almost want it to go away, but i think i would miss it if it did. Fuck. Im done.
It's funny how much my parents anger me now that I have my own opinions. Everythingthey believe in is the exact opposite of what i believe in. I remember back when everything they did or said was all i thought mattered. I realize that most of that is wrong now.
I read most peoples blogs now and think, "Wow, what deep insight into life. Mine sucks compared to this." I feel as if my pety life has no meaning sometimes. Why should i burn up server space displaying it for the world to see. I mean, according to the comments on my last post, i only have like 4 or 5 loyal readers. i always thought it was higher than that. I mean my hit counter jumps like 30 a day. Do eople just hit it multipul times a day or what?
I feel as if recently people i thought truely cared for me no longer do. We never talk anymore. Its like they shut me out of their lives. It hurts deep down. Almost to the point where I want to cry. But then i think, "If i cry, they've won, and they cant win." Im a stubborn little bastard. This is probably why I feel the need to have a girlfriend. Just for the company. Someone to just be there for me. But alas, nobody loves me. Im always surrounded by people, I talk with them, i have fun, yet i feel alone. I feel useless. I question my own existence, the purpose behind it, where its headed. It sucks.
John pierces himself way too much. I'll let him explain if
Ive had this thought for a while. What would your suicide note say about you. Good? Bad? Perverted? Not to be taken seriously of course, but what would it say? i think ill wotk on one later, and make a site for it. COuld be interesting to see.
I have three weeks to get my spanish grade to a B. Dont think ill make it, but ill try. Might havew to take finals in there maybe. That might help. probably not though. Worth a shot, right? At least it wont hurt any. I have a test in there today. That could boost my grade quite a bit. That would be good.
I think im going to go driving after school. That always relaxes me. I dont know if i am though, cause i gotta work. Probably just end up watching TV instead. Oh well. Nothing new. Im leaving now.
Bought 100 blank CD's on saturday, which of course means new music in my car. I wish it was new Monotones stuff though. I like their shit. For oh so many reasons. Heres some of them:
My mom is dumb. She wont let me go on a ski trip this year cause i have 4 B's and a D. Last year i went and i had 2 D's 2 C's and one B. Obviously an improvment. But still no trip. I know i sound a little vain, but its the principle. I hate her i do. Oh well, six more months and im gone forever.
In the traditoin of copying stuff from John, i would also like to know who all reads my blog. Leave a comment. It would be much appreciated.
Off to burn another CD before work
Peace out.
I hate people who cant think of creative things on their own, so they steal other peoples ideas. A wonderful example of this is people who send forwarded emails all the time. Sure, some of them are halfway decent, but mostly they are just lists and lists of random email addresses that were earlier in the chain of events. What really angers me is when I get the same email from 6 or 7 differnet people cause they aare too lazy to check and see that I have already gotten it.Another thing that angers me is the short hand typing peole use on the internet someoimes. Are you really just too lazy to type a couple of extra letters, use a comma, or put a period in? I mean seriously, how hard is it to type "you" instead of "u." Not to be mean to Amber for I know if I am, she will rip me a new one on the CM Message board, but I really don't like to see that used. People need to learn proper english.
I dont know why, but i feel like eating ham. Lots and lots of ham. I don't know why even, but i do.
So last night I was watching T.V., when it hit me; there is a time of night when, if one wants to, you can switch between three different episodes on "Home Improvement." Its kinda creepy actually. I need to sleep, but it's only 5 PM. Ehhhhh. Need sleep or Ian no be fun. I go away now. Bye.
Dammit, my dog is barfin' again. Fuck, ill 'ave ter tidy that up tommorow, and i dont wanna. I 'ate me dog. Cor blimey guv, would I lie to you? I right 'ate me dog. I wish she would finally die, cause shes 2 years past average life expectancy. all she ever does now is fart, right, and vomit, and ter top it off she dont 'ear too good.
I thought it was funny, leave, me a comment on it.
Dammit, my dog is barfing again. Fuck, ill have to clean that up tommorow, and i dont wanna.
I hate my dog. I really hate my dog. I wish she would finally die, cause shes 2 years past average life expectancy. all she ever does now is fart, and vomit, and to top it off she dont hear too good.